Judulnya Mupeng

Mau tau mupeng itu apa? Mupeng itu perasaan ngiler terhadap sesuatu yang mungkin dalam waktu dekat belom dan gak bisa kita milikin. Mupeng itu bisa terjadi kapan aja, dimana aja dan gara-gara apa aja. Ya, gw lagi mupeng berat nih. Kali ini kemupengan gw berawal dari nonton tv. Tadi pagi gw nonton infotainment ada ayu dewi sama suaminya, lucu banget deh mereka gw langsung kebayang gw sama aa gara2 suaminya ayu kagak romantic persis kayak aa, dan gw nya yang ngomong blak blakan, cute, lucu dan manis kayak ayu. Banyak yang jleb sama kayak yang gw alamin gitu deh dari wawancara mereka. Ya cukup membuat iri seketika sih, apalagi si ayu lagi hamil, gw langsung elus2 perut gw yang bervolume sama kayakbuah melon ini dengan mata berkaca-kaca mengharap hamil juga. OMG ini gw akuin gw lebay banget, tapi seriously itu yang terjadi.

Pas malem berlanjut lagi. Tumben2an nih tv gw ga trans tv….malah nonton sctv nih. Acara ultah sctv, isinya boyband girlband yang pada lipsinc dan band melayu2 gitu. Gara2 adek gw si mega nonton terpaksa gw gak ganti chanel soalnya gw sendiri juga lagi sibuk ngegayain jilbab buat baju baru hehe. Abis mainan jilbab dan baju baru, gw ikut rebahan depan tv ada si narji ngomong gw ga meratiin dia ngomong apa, yang gw dengar ada kata2 perjalanan menemukan cinta, waaahhh…gw selalu exciting dengan kata2 itu! Jadi maksudnya tentang host inbox yang ngelamar2 calon istri mereka gituh. Andika ngelamar usy, gading ngelamar gisell. Ih lucu deh entah itu cuplikan atau memang film super pendek cerita gimana andika dulu ngelamar usy. Awwww sooooo *ambil nafas, atur emosi* gimana yah gitu. Meleleh sayah dibuatnya. Its so romantic, I guess! Dimulai ada andika lagi nyiapin barang2 buat nembak(ngelamar maksudnya). Terus cuplikan di bandara, trus adegan main kucing2an dipantai. Usy nyari2in andika dan anak2nya…tiba2 jeng jeng…anak2nya megang tulisan yang disusun jadi kata will you marry me. Usy nya celingak celinguk kanan kiri trus andika nongol dari belakangnya. Ini mah fix buatan lah ya….duh kalo kenyataan gimana rasanya yah? *mulai ngayal*

Kemudian gara2 liat adegan itu jadilah gw mikir, wah dilamar..sekali seumur hidup loh. (PS: bagi yang niat nikah sekali seumur hidup, dilamar pun sekali seumur hidup, okey). Wah wah wah…boleh dong pesen 1 lamaran yg kayak gitu. DOhhh pengen yang romantis kayak di film2 ntu tuh. *pasang muka ngarep*

Lalu kembali mikir, gimana kalo…tau sendiri gw punya calon kagak romantic. *mendadak lesu*. Yaaaa walaupun calon kita gak romantisss, aduh plis jangan konvensional dong. Ini jaman modern, terlebih gw pecinta film lope2an penuh kejutan dan kasih sayang.. (hasek) . trus juga udah bayak banget video lamaran dari luar negri yang gw liat baik di on the spot atau you tube. Pengen kayak gitu jugaaak ah plissssssss. Hehe *maksa*

Gw selalu menghindari topic ini kalo ngobrol sama aa. Masalahnya sifat gw yang meluap2 kayak gini bisa berabe bagai orang sakit yang obatnya cuma harus segera dilamar nih. Wakakak, ada gituh penyakit yang obatnya mesti dilamar. Haha.. gw sih selalu ngasih pelajaran ke otak gw supaya hal kayak ginian jangan diomongin, biar terserah dia aja mau kapan kek yang penting gw gak tau, karna gw pengen ngerasain itu yang namanya kagetnya diminta nikah. Ah! Sigh! Tapi mungkin gak sih nanti suatu saat gw juga bakal merassssakan perasaan terkaget-kaget campur berbunga-bunga kayak gitu juga. Jaman sekarang kan mau nikah ngobrol dulu, mau ngapa-ngapain diskusi dulu. Kebanyakan nonton film nih gw jadi se-la-lu berekspektasi tinggi pada sesuatu. Duh mulai ngayal deh. Mending di stop deh bahas ginian, mupeng berat nih sodara-sodara. Harus segera distop bok, kalo gak kasian si gw nya kelamaaaan ngayal masalahnya belom tau juga kapan diproposalinnya sih. Huhuhuhu…berawal dari mupeng kemudian bete. Kalo gitu sekian laporan dari kemupengan gw. Hahahah *nangis sepanjang hari kalo inget ini* <--- Cuma ngelawak.

Complicated but simple ?

Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.

When Smile is The Only Way

Luluh

By: Maliq n d'essentials 


Oo.. haruskah aku pergi
Salahkah bila ku di sini tak peduli keadaannya

Katakan berapa dalam kau ingin aku masuk di kehidupanmu
Oo.. katakan berapa jauh kau ingin aku ada di hari-harimu
Bagaimana pantasnya.. bagaimana..

Oo.. haruskah aku pergi
Salahkah bila ku di sini tak peduli keadaannya
Oo.. setiap kau tersenyum
Membuatku melupakan dunia nyata, tetap di sini

Tak pernah semudah itu aku mengerti apa yang kita jalani
Meski akhirnya semudah itu hatiku luluh kembali ke pelukanmu
Bagaimana pantasnya.. bagaimana..

Oo.. haruskah aku pergi
Salahkah bila ku di sini tak peduli keadaannya
Oo.. setiap kau tersenyum
Membuatku melupakan dunia nyata, tetap di sini

Apalah yang diharapkan, bila tak ada tujuan
Mungkin hanya kesenangan, yang membuat kita terus bertahan

Oo.. haruskah aku pergi
Salahkah bila ku di sini tak peduli keadaannya
Oo.. setiap kau tersenyum
Membuatku melupakan dunia nyata, tetap di sini

Oo.. haruskah aku pergi
Salahkah bila ku di sini tak peduli keadaannya
Oo.. setiap kau tersenyum
Membuatku melupakan dunia nyata, tetap di sini

Oo.. haruskah aku pergi
Salahkah bila ku di sini tak peduli keadaannya
Oo.. setiap kau tersenyum
Membuatku melupakan dunia nyata, tetap di sini

Oo.. haruskah aku pergi
Salahkah bila ku di sini tak peduli keadaannya
Oo.. setiap kau tersenyum
Membuatku melupakan dunia nyata, tetap di sini

just wondering

aku,
masih berdiri disini,
melihat pagi ke pagi terus berganti . .
terlelap dari malam ke pagi lagi . .

waktu berjalan terasa cepat,
entahlah . .tapi begitu terasa hambar .
biasa bahkan mengarah standar !

dan detik-detik itu segera berganti, berlalu pun pergi . .
tinggal aku yang baru tanpa merasa ada perubahan berarti . .

masa depan menjadi sarapan .
memaksa oh, bukan . .menjalani !
apa yang ada di hadapan siap atau tidak mesti lah ditelan . .

dengan membuka mata, hati, fikiran, dan (meyakini) jalan ini akan semakin indah .
ku upayakan jadi yang terbaik bagi segalanya !
meski (semua itu) asing, ingin segera jadi lebih baik lagi . .

ya, paling tidak untuk (semua yang ada di) hidupku sendiri .

:)

Already Gone

By: Kelly Clarkson


Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Can't Stop

By : Maroon 5

All alone in my room, think of you at a rate that is truly alarming
I keep looping my memories of you in my head, I pretend that you want me
And I fall asleep and dream of alternate realities
And I put myself at ease by pretending that s[he] still loves me

And I can't stop thinking about you
And I can't stop thinking about you
You never call, what do I do?
And I can't stop thinking about your love

Ohh, yeah

Can't believe I could think that s[he] would just follow me everywhere I go
I just wrestle with you in my dreams and wake up making love to a pillow
And I fall asleep and dream of alternate realities
And I put myself at ease by pretending that s[he] still loves me

And I can't stop thinking about you
And I can't stop thinking about you
You never call, what do I do?
And I can't stop, and I can't stop

What I would give to have you look in my direction
And I'd give my life to somehow attract your attention
And I touch myself like it's somebody else
Thoughts of you are tattooed on my mind, let me show you

And I can't stop thinking about you
And I can't stop thinking about you
You'll never go, what do I do?
And I can't stop thinking about you

And I can't stop thinking about you
And I can't stop thinking about you
You'll never go, what do I do?
And I can't stop thinking about you

The Story Of Us

By: Taylor Swift


I used to think that one day we'd tell the story of us,

And how we met

And how the sparks flew instantly

And people would say they're the lucky ones

I used to know my place was the spot next to you,

Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat

Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on

Oh, a simple complication,

Miscommunications lead to a fallout,

So many things that I wish you knew

So many walls up, I can't break through

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room

And we're not speaking

And I'm dying to know

Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,

When it all broke down

And the story of us

Looks a lot like a tragedy now

Next chapter

How did we end up this way?

See me nervously pulling at my clothes

And trying to look busy

And you're doing your best to avoid me

I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us

How I was losing my mind when I saw you here

But you held your pride like you should have held me

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,

Why are we pretending this is nothing?

I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how

I've never heard silence quite this loud.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room

And we're not speaking

And I'm dying to know

Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,

When it all broke down

And the story of us

Looks a lot like a tragedy now

This is looking like a contest

Of who can act like they care less

But I liked it better when you were on my side

The battle's in your hands now

But I would lay my armor down

If you said you'd rather love than fight

So many things that you wish I knew

But the story of us might be ending soon

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room

And we're not speaking

And I'm dying to know

Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate

When it all broke down

And the story of us

Looks a lot like a tragedy now

Now, now, now

And were not speaking,

And I'm dying to know

Is it killing you

Like it's killing me?

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,

'Cause were going down

And the story of us

Looks a lot like a tragedy now

aku-diamku-pikiranku

Kadangkala mungkin tergambar di benak fikiranmu, bahwa engkau telah salah ketika memilih diriku menjadi pasanganmu. Kadang kala pikiran ini mengganggu dalam pergaulan sehari-harimu denganku. terkadang ku takut perasaan cintamu berubah menjadi benci, limpahan kasih sayangmu menjelma menjadi kemarahan, dan ketenangan pun berubah menjadi ketegangan.

Di saat engkau masih sibuk dengan pekerjaan yang tak kunjung selesai, tak jarang aku kau abaikan. Waktu2 di rumah pun, kadang ku ikhlaskan demi masa depanmu. Bukankah engkau tau aku pun butuh perhatian darimu. Terkadang ku cari perhatian itu, namun terlihat salah dipandanganmu. Kalaulah itu terlihat salah, semoga engkau bisa melihat kebaikanku yang lain.

Sadarkah engkau bahwa tiada manusia di dunia ini yang sempurna segalanya? Bukankah engkau tau bahwa hanyalah Allah yang Maha Sempurna. Tidaklah sepatutnya bila kau hanya menghitung-hitung kekurangan pasangan hidupmu-->Aku, sedangkan engkau sendiri tak pernah sekalipun menghitung kekurangan dan kesalahanmu. Janganlah engkau mencari-cari selalu kesalahanku, padahal aku telah taat kepadamu.

Saat diriku rela pergi bersama dirimu, kutinggalkan orangtua dan sanak saudaraku, ku ingin engkaulah yang mengisi kekosongan hatiku. Naungilah diriku dengan kasih sayang, dan senyuman darimu. Ku ingat pula saat aku ragu memilih siapa pendampingku, ketakwaan yang terlihat dalam keseharianmu-lah yang mempesona diriku.


Jika engkau ada waktu ajarkanlah diriku dengan ilmu yang telah Allah berikan kepadamu. Apabila engkau sibuk, maka biarkan aku menuntut ilmu, namun tak akan kulupakan tanggungjawabku, sehingga kelak diriku dapat menjadi sekolah buat putra-putrimu. Karena nantinya aku akan jadi madrasah ilmu pertama buat putra-putriku. Semoga engkau selalu mendampingiku, sebagai penambah kekuatan ku untuk mencintai Rabb-ku.

It was a moment of weakness

When did crying stop being acceptable? I'm sick of being a big girl.
You already know that I dont want to be left before I change my frowning face with a smile again. I waited, you talk to me. Cause I love it, stare at your face when you says "i love u" till I say it back. We were not in a war so what are we fighting for? I don't know so just shut-up and say all the thing you've wanted to say. You can see that I've been crying And baby you know all the right things: to say.  You know.. You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet and I know you never will do it for me. Baby, you might still have me. Always

lagi sedih

lagi sedih.. nyalain laptop, kembali sibuk2 ngurusin online shop.. (alibi)
sambil nyalain lagu ini repeat mode : on.. ngena bgt sama yg lagi dirasain. :'(

"rebecca-ku ingin kau tahu"

beginilah liriknya kira-kira...

kejadian yang sering terjadi
perlakuan yang menyakiti hati
kau sebut dia, banggakan dia,
seakan ku ti-ada arti
aku bukanlah~ dia
aku pun isti~mewa
dan kau tak pernah tahu,
perkataanmu,
melukai dinding hatiku

reff:
jangan lagi kau ulangi perkataanmu
sekali lagi ku dapati kesalahanmu
aku akan meninggalkanmu
walau berat isi hatiku
ku ingin kau tahu

adakah kau mengakui diriku
terlihatkah letak kelebihan diriku
kau ceritakan dia
banggakan dia
seakan aku tiada artinya

back to reff

engkau tak pernah tahu,
perkataanmu,
melukai dinding hatiku~

jangan lagi kau ulangi perkataanmu
sekali lagi ku dapati kesalahanmu
back to reff

ku ingin kau (x2)
ku ingin kau tahu

Only If You Knew

Only if you knew I've changed so much just to be the best for you.
Only if you knew all the crazy things I'd do for you.
Only if you knew how I am extremely jealous and please do not hook me to be angry

Only if you knew I can cry, complain, and make a big fool of myself.
Only if you knew it’s not that I’m trying to get your attention, I just need to know you care.

Only if you knew I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
Only if you knew I hate it when you make me cry.
Only if you knew I hate it when I'm going through a bad time, and you make it pretty worst.

Only if you knew how hurts it started, how confusing it began.
Only if you knew how much one little thing can hurt me.
Only if you knew maybe I'm the girl that don't realize what I'm worth,
Only if you knew that you don't realize what you have.
Only if you knew how much I love you so
Only if you knew how hard I stand loved you for such little respect or some worth giving for.
Only if you knew how you meant more to me then than I think you ever knew.