morning perpetual confession

I Have Anger Problems. You all the only one I can talk to. You are my
whole family. When I need to talk about my friends and complain about
everything you're there. When I'm sick or in pain you're there. No
matter what you're there. Even when the world judge and disparaging
me, you still believe and safe me. You give me the best.
You fought for me and I know it. When I would come to you crying you'd
hug me and tell me you loved me. But I'm sorry I'm so mean to you. I
admit I have anger problems but that's no excuse. I yell at you so
much my throat feels like it's about to bleed. I throw things at you
and make you break down to crying. I'd like to make up an excuse but I
can't. I don't have many friends, I don't have good achievement and I
feel alone so I
lash out at you. I remember every fight we've had. I messed anything.
I yell and I'd have smoke coming out of my ears. But you always end
up forgiving me. even without me asking for forgiveness. Even I don't
deserve it. And that's makes me feel guilty. You really do not know
how to hate me even know my behave like monster. I'm sorry for every
time I hurt you, I'm sorry. I'm not a perfect person. There's many
things I wish I didn't do. But I continue learning. I never meant to
do those things to you. I'm sorry that I hurt you. It's something I
must live with everyday. And all the pain I put you through. I wish
that I could take it all away. I'm sorry for everything ending this
way. I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm sorry that I made you cry. I
didn't want to hurt you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I made you cry. I
was shivering inside. I was swallowing my pain. And I know one thing.
I love you more then anyone else in the world by miles and I'd run
those millions of miles just to hug you. If only I could tell you this
to your face..You know I never hated
you. I love you guys :'-((((((((((












To: everyone that I've hurted
From: so mean monster